"Jacob was right. He'd been right all long. Ha was more than just a friend. That's why it was so long impossible to tell him goodbye - because I was in love with him. Too. I loved him, much more I should, and yet, still nowhere near enough. I was in love with him, but it was not enough to change anything; it was only enough to hurt us both more. To hurt him worse than I ever had."
(Eclipse)